Do you know?

Do you know what it's like? Surrounding yourself with people who laugh, undermine, and belittle your pain then pour their heart out into a confession from the bottom of their heart until you believe they have truly changed. Then they start laughing again and it is still all a joke to them. I was once told that laughter is the key to someone's heart but everytime someone starts to giggle I always seem to be the punchline and it feels like they are trying to break into my heart but they are always laughing at me instead of with me. So I lock every door, board up all the windows, and hide.

I stopped talking because I was tired of being talked over, interrupted, ignored, laughed at, mocked. The only time people started listening was when I became silent. I was always the last priority never at the top of anybody's friend list. People only noticed me when I started to disappear. I truly believe I am invisible until my pain is convenient for you.